Half Trying
When we began sharing the news about Baby Punkin, of course one of the questions people asked is if we were trying. Our response? We were "half trying" or "not, NOT trying."
Which is true. Once we moved and got settled into the 3-bedroom townhouse, Baby #2 started to become a possibility for "maybe sometime in the next year or so." So this was around January that I felt more open to the thought of another baby. But since finances and careers are even still today a big factor to figure in, I didn't want to try 100%. I thought we'd just let it happen if it happened. I also did not want it to become one more thing to stress out about in my life, which it could very well become anyway if it took awhile! So really, Baby #2 was just in the back of our minds.
2011 Baby Parade
That is, until March when everyone, and I mean EVERYONE, began announcing they were pregnant! From friends to family to mere Facebook friends there were at least a dozen pregnancies announced. So even if Baby #2 was nowhere in my mind, all of this woulda put the idea there anyway!
Am I Late?
After this, I was a little more "in-tune" with my body. (Warning:TMI) Since my cycle had been pretty inconsistent it was hard to know if & when something could happen or if it already did. Sometimes I would go over 40 days. But usually after a long cycle, a clockwork-like 28 day one would hit and I'd think I was back on track. Well when a 40-day-er happened in March, I waited til I was at about 30 days and took a test. Negative. I wasn't disappointed but it did make me realize this could get annoying, with not knowing when I was technically "late." It came two days later.
Well, this happened again at the end of April, this time I forced myself to be more patient and waited until 40 days. Negative again, and again, it came two days later.
Embarrassed of myself for being *duped* by my body, I vowed to be very trigger shy the next time I thought to take a test.
This brings us to early July. As promised, I waited until I was past 43 days. I had also been feeling very lightheaded that week. That wasn't a symptom I had with Addison, but I'm always not normally lightheaded, so I took note of that and waited until that Friday, July 9th.
E-P-T
Tim and I were going to be apart most of the weekend, me at a concert then visiting my mom in Madison - he, at an all day bachelor party. I had a half day that Friday to go to the Britney Spears concert with my best friend Katie. Well, when I got home that afternoon and was waiting for her to arrive, I got antsy and since this was day 43, I didn't want to be wondering about it all weekend until I was back home on Sunday. So, I took the test. The faintest little plus sign appeared. Nowhere near the slap-you-in-the-face bold blue plus sign I got from Addison's test.
I stared at it. I even looked at it from different angles to make sure the line wasn't appearing to me like a mirage. But the lines remained. So I took a deep breath and smiled, and within the hour, Katie showed up.
Part of me wanted to just blurt it out, to say it out loud for my own realization, but it still seemed surreal so it was easy to just carry on with our evening. But once in awhile, the thought would pop into my head and I would smile.
Since I didn't want to just blurt it out to Tim late that night when I got home, I decided to leave a little surprise for him on his dresser. I put the test in an envelope and on the front of the envelope I wrote, "Oops...We Did It Again!" (get it? I was heading to the Britney Spears concert when he got this!).
While I was out at pre-concert dinner with Katie, I saw it was around 5:15, the time Tim gets home from work. So I patiently waited for some sort of text from him. Finally around he finally saw it and texted me. It was funny to lead the double life of chatting with Katie about whatever, and at the same time texting with Tim about our new baby!
I had the feeling that I was very early along, but there was no easy way to calculate it given my inconsistencies. I was either 4 weeks or 6 weeks. When we had our first Dr.'s appointment a week and half later, I was just over 5 weeks, so yes very early! We quickly realized we had a long road ahead of us before we could share the news.
Finding out about Baby Punkin was such a different experience than finding out about Addison. I love that they already have such different "life stories."
Keep checking back, as I have a lot of catching up to do on this blog. Next topic: 1st Trimester Recap!
